May 28th 2012
Wow almost 2 years have gone by since I wrote on this and so much happening. Anyway,who cares.
Got a new notebook and new sharpie pen. First thing in my head this morning,which, is what gave me the courage to start this up again was a poem. I'll get to that. In looking back at all the stuff I was working on
like the "Dog Boy" That was a pretty decent painting. I was moving it one day and he decided to sit up in the truck and snapped in half. The other small pieces,gone and recycled into some lame project. No big deal. I have lots of books left and the dog book has a little case I made out of an old record player. Without going back,not sure if I wrote about Polly Anne. She's gone and in the shrine with Madeline.
Matilda Jane joined the girls,born on the day I lost Polly. Okay, the poem:
                    I must go down to the seas again to the lonely sea and the sky
                   And all I ask is a tall ship and a star to steer her by
                   And the wheel's kick and the winds song and the white sail shaking
                   And a grey mist on the sea's face and a grey dawn breaking
                   I must go down to the seas again for the call of the running tide
                   Is a wild call and a clear call that may not be denied
                  And all I ask is a windy day with the white clouds flying
                 And the flung spray and the blown spume and the sea gulls crying
                 I must go down to the sea again to the vagrant gypsy life
                 To the gulls way and the whales way where the winds like a whetted knife
                 And all I ask is a merry yarn from a laughing fellow rover

                And a quiet sleep and a sweet dream when the long tricks over.








              

June 28th 2:06 pm

Ok,I'm back. first,what kind of crazy person takes on 4 shows in one year and decides it will new work. The first one actually comes down this week. And thanks to Grandpa Wiener I might just get the next one finished. Had a major setback when I lost my Polly Pug. I was doing okay until I brought her little cedar box with engraved name home. So, had a pity party well had a few pity parties.I took a picture of her on my laptop 2 days before she died. can't stand to look at it.

And nowI have to get it together. Maddie died while I was working on a show. In fact, I have to get my notebook out about her. These writings have changed since I started but I guess that's okay.Big painting "Dog Boy" has a lot to go,not sure I'll finish. 2 shrines that I will surround with

an empty frame wrapped in lights. couldn't figure any other way to light them.

Grandpa's paintings are small by my standards. 36"x 48" be he's small too!

june 11 8:05 am

What a hectic week. Finally got the play finished with some of my students. Now,the props are in the garage. Sat. hung the first of the 4 exhibits I've been freaking out about. Lot's of work but the finished result look good,I think . Been dragging these monster paintings around for what seems like forever,still trying to make stuff, and when I fall into my little world it seems okay. It's when I slip and fall into the real world I realize I am certainly marching to the wrong drum . Some one,I thought was a friend said I wasn't any fun. Wonder what fun is. I thought I was fun. Kids I work with,people I work with,lot's of people think I'm fun. People in my galleries think I'm fun.So,one person shouldn't matter should it.But it sort of does because this one person doesn't get my art, doesn't get me but still thinks I'm not fun. Next weekend I teach all day at an earth fair making art from trash. Isn't that fun? Oh well. On to the doggie show which by this time next month it will or won't be on the walls. The notebook for the show is called Dog Show the show is Dog Days. Grandpa Wiener better get his brushes out.

He's almost finished. If all goes well today I should have my shrine done and grandpa's installation. That will leave the notebook to finish tomorrow at Highwire and sunday finish Dog Boy. This is self portrait as happy kiddo. not sure if I'll paint her the same size as Dog Boy but might .

Then,and only then, I feel like treating myself to a fancy dinner out in a fancy place. Get all dressed up and be treated like a queen. The little red truck with a dent in the side hardly makes it so I will hide it somewhere behind a bush. I think I'll choose a place with a patio.

May 28th 10:11

Well, I crashed and burned last weekend. Then, felt better when one of the kids decided to splatter paint. Splatter paint always cheers me up,of course,his mom wasn't happy about the shoes.

I'm working on a play with my students and going crazy making the props. Almost done. Shows?

good grief! Thank god for grandpa wiener. I'm working on 6 paintings at the same time. I have chosen 4 of Grandpa's greatest works to interpret. also,Dog Boy. He is one of the visible boy collages. He's 72" tall. I always start paintings with a wash of different color but just drew him with black paint. Want that paint totally dry so I'll be back to him tomorrow, Prairie Dog is off the stretchers. I'm thinking of gluing it on heavy cardboard. Also have a big trash sculpture to work on,other that that nothing new.

May 24 7:34

At random I chose the Tarot card of the day and it turned out to be

"Queen of Wands"

Today is about a woman who is the mistress of self. She is an individual. Knows exactly who she is and acts as her own authority. she is a survivor of many past hurts and and has been tempered like steel through loss and grief. She knows what she wants and goes and gets it. Today is about independence personal liberty,self reliance,self esteem,self knowledge and self confidence. Take the off mask of old roles and expectations and show your true self. Be the ruler of your own life.

I'm back to trying to focus. I need to think,how do I do all the work. Study the "Queen of Wands" Don't fall in the well. No black hole.

Trying to come up with the work for my dog days show I found this photo of Madeline and Okie.

May 13th 7:00am

I have been so busy. I've also been spending time staring into space. All these show creeping up fast. any way have stopped working on the June show. I have to concentrate on July. I work on this large notebook every day at school. the little kids love to share the supplies I bring. Anyway I found a book in NYC about dog portraits. I took each one and and glued a small part on each page. I am using only the book for the collage pieces and water color and oil pastel I want to loose the image completely. I bought a bunch of canvases with the idea of using them for the visible boys planes but that will have to wait. This is "Grandpa Wiener, a painter for our times. so this is how the process works at it's best. Get it?

I like the ones that clearly show the frame. I have a bunch of frame pieces I could add if I can figure out how to attach. forgot the cover.

I'll explain the process. I found the title first,in an old art magazine. then I found the book in NYC. Then I made the notebook, next I'll do the paintings,

May 5th 6:58

Went to visit the gallery space for the show I'm having in June. Good Grief! It's huge. And not only that what kind of a nut sends a press release for a show in July with no work. actually I do have the plan in my head,great,now to get it out of my head. The plan. 5 large paintings. the first one I have the drawing "Self portrait with bullet the Wonder Dog" The second Self portrait with Taos Dog Understudies" The challenge? Can I let go of the abstract. Wait and see. Large notebook

"Sit Stay" These are abstract portraits of dogs and a series of small photos from Westminster.